the most blessed man on earth

I'm sorry if this is copyrighted.  It's how I feel this evening.  All credit of title to the actual? most blessed man on earth.  I feel so privileged right now and it's not necessarily a totally positive thing even though by definition I think it should be.  

This post is going to contain God.  I'm feeling like living in the place I am, growing up in the place I did, and participating in the life that I live has been one of such privilege.  I'm typing on a gifted top of the line laptop.  I'm laying under a feather blanket and listening to some magical pianist.  But this doesn't even scratch the surface of where my privilege lies.  It lies in the fact that I can know God.  Let that sink in deep.   Think about the magnitude of that.  I deal with a lot of vectors in school and have to find the magnitude of them often.  The sum of the squares stuff.  This thought cannot be squared because it is already at infinity.  In the same way that eternity is unfathomable for us time constrained human beings this freedom is truly unknown to us.  Still, we are able to grasp at it, scratch the surface, and hold, even if for only a moment, the idea that God, a God, can be known by me.  What blew my mind today was that even though I am given the choice to know God, I do not throw myself one hundred percent at this opportunity.  Like a fat zoo lion who doesn't care to chase the other animals in the cage.  When it does chase the animal it still only does it for some simple entertainment.  Are we only chasing God for some simple entertainment?  

Sitting outside in the frozen land I live in I was struck by the beauty.  I was then struck by the cold and the thought that all those living in rainy places (The West Coast) think they would love snow.  Finally, I was struck by the thought that when we, who wish for warmth, finally achieve it, we fail to appreciate it.  All is unsatisfactory!  

The only thing that seems to bring about joy is purpose.  Broken down even further the only purpose that really seems to satisfy is the pursuit of knowing God.  This full circle argument though is far from complete and fool-proof.  As said earlier, even when the only pursuit worthwhile or good or satisfying or redemptive is to pursue God, we chase anything and everything else.  We finite beings are lost in an infinity of wandering.  Make the wander an adventure and maybe you'll find purpose to your path.